Here are the compiled Dreams Of October In the year 2K
Below you will find the dreams from this month. For easier access I have decided to list them all on one page. Depending on how many dreams I had for the month this page might get kinda long. But the names of each dream should click you down to the dream.

I have no idea what I am posting or when...so if you see dreams on this page, just say thank you, read and enjoy.  One day I will catch up to myself.

The dreams to the left are In order by the dates they were dreamt. They all of a brief and sometimes not so brief analysis following the actual dream. They may or may not represent the total of remembered dreams from this month. The time it takes to scour notebooks will tell.

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October 25, 2000

I am at an amusement park / zoo / water park.  We are in line taking the tour and I wanted to go to this one area (my friends went a different way) but it was getting dark so fast.  My friends are chastising me for being behind and I am like "Who knew it would take so long to stay on the regular course?" There is a very green sea plant in the water with fish swimming around it.  

We cut through this one area that looked like the restaurant in Brown County with the wooden floors and they are serving big family style veggies and I was wishing I had eaten there.  I am drinking an iced tea.   The green beans looked great!  We ended up in a small kitchen area.

I am on a college campus.  There is a pool and it would appear some partying going on near it.  It is dark and I think maybe the party shouldn't be happening but what do I know.  The buildings are old, structures, I get the feel of an Ivy League School.  I walk up a hill and Hector is there, I think he wants to buy me a cup of coffee but I am kind of in a hurry.  I am speaking to Tanya and trying to squeeze around this turnstile (its pretty big, taller than me, maybe it was a magazine rack) but I am watching Hector like if I get far enough then he will forget about the coffee.

Insights and Interpretations:
My sister had a dream about being on a college campus also the very same night and I am wondering if we made contact during the dream state.  You can find it under the visitor contributions listed as college images. 

The significant part of this dream, well, two parts really is the trash piling up in one place where I can find it.  And, the statement I make about "Who knew it would take so long if I followed the normal course."  I think that is a direct metaphor again for my life.  I was trying to lead a normal life following the path that normal people took but it put me way off track for where I was supposed to be.  I think that is part of the reason I am hurrying through the college campus.

Classrooms in general can be a metaphor for the life experience as a learning experience.  And from the dream, I am a little behind schedule so here I am rushing through the campus to get somewhere and catch up with my friends in the one piece.  "God" knows I would rush to my place in life if I knew where the heck that was supposed to be.

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October 27, 2000

I am in the woods sitting behind a log with someone and this animal comes up.  Seems like its a bear and I am petting it but scratching it hard like a massage to get deep into its skin.  It seems pretty pleased.

We are playing basketball, both guys and girls.  Everybody is pretty lazy about it actually and I end up with the ball alot.   I am scoring alot.  I can't quite get the ball to go where I want it and everybody is really kind of quitting.  I think I have like 15 points, I am ahead.   I am scooting and flying around the floor and I comment that I was never a good dribbler, which means its a good thing I never take steps or I would be traveling all over the place.  It is very bright here and the floor is light oak and highly polished.   I decide to take a final shot and I lop the ball and its coming down wrong to the left of the basket and I put my hand out and send my energy through the left hand and force the ball over in mid air.  It strips the basket.

I am in an office.  Matt is there and he is being pretty arrogant, sarcastic.  It has something to do with books or something.  Anyway I want to get him a message but I don't want to deal with his huge ego so I write it out and am putting it on his desk.  Well, he's been watching me so when I go to his desk, he bee-lines for the cubicle to catch me.  I am pretty nonchalant and he is like "on" me and I think he follows me away.

I am at Sandra's and she has this long couch I am sitting on and I tell her that the first time I visited, the couch was creepy and I would not sit on it.  Then it was always piled with clothes.  She said in the beginning, she had a different room mate and she might have left "things" on / in the couch.  I got the feel it was dark energy she was referring to.  And now the couch is clean and it seems longer like 2 more sections have been added.

I take Sandra and Tanya to Carl's and LN is cooking breakfast.  I make eggs and waffles and hash browns (where is she cooking?) anyway, there are not enough of the same plates but the food is done and if we wait it will get cold.  LN sets out the plates we have and I don't get one so I am like well you don't care if I just use one of the ones that don't match right?  And, she says, she does mind because it looks tacky and why doesn't Carl "She keeps telling him" keep a good set around so everybody can have nice plates.  Well, the only way he could do that is if he bought 2 sets of 4, I tell her.  I am frustrated at the situation so I tell her fine, but I am leaving now.  I realize that I have brought Sandra and Tanya and that I have made an agreement to drop LN's daughter somewhere.  LN says well don't yell at me.  I said I am not yelling but I am not staying here for this because it is ridiculous.

Insights and Interpretations:
The bear represents introspection...hold on let me read...sweetness of truth, a time to digest the years experiences...goals becoming concrete realities.  Well, thats interesting.

The basketball episode is referring to me trying to force a situation or make it happen.  It looks like I make it happen but then again sometimes dream symbols get confusing.  I have been doing alot of work with the lottery so this could be in direct response to some of this work.  I have a strong desire, interest and belief that I will win the lottery and have been working with my angels to do this.  So far, no good but I have this knowing about it, as if I have already won and all I have to do is collect it.

I think this dream is telling me that I am getting messages, but that I have cleared some areas and then the confusing little piece at the end pretty much says I am tired of the whole ridiculousness of my life.

I definitely think I am trying to break out of some kind of pattern.

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October 23, 2000

Preface:

I was asking for help negotiating around my blocks for the lottery.  Also, I kind of falsely named this one because Matt Damon appears in this too but I already had a Matt Damon dream...so read on.

I am at a party and Kim and Janet are there and it is like "old" times before partners and kids and stuff.  This area is vague, a fall setting, and a Marcy village type atmosphere.

I have a cup of coffee and I am sharing it with somebody in the backseat of a car.  He is a younger guy and I am patronizing him about not spilling his coffee.  Then, I get out of the car and toss the container in the trash after topping off my cup of coffee.

I am shopping with a group of women.   The clothes are ugly!  Pam and at least 6 other women are in the store and when we come out we see Carole way down the street and we have to go get her.  Then Carole shows me this bag (purse) she bought from the store and it is ugly too.

The next place is very busy.  The set moves from a friends house, to a local restaurant, to my house or boyfriends house or something.  There is a Ben Affleck and Matt Damon drop in here.  It is very annoying to me because I find I am doing things that I would not normally do in an awakened state.  Its tough to explain.  Here goes.  I think Sandra and I are going out to dinner but then two guys are going with us and I think they are our boyfriends but then I realize that - no these are people I would rather not get caught with.  I think this is where they are Ben and Matt.

There is a Sega game (I guess) in the hallway and men (boys?) are dropping into character left and right.  Matt is apparently my boyfriend or something and we are talking to Ben who is sitting on a footstool and I tell them that technically, Ben is more my type...the soft spoken, kind, very loving and gentle type.  And there is some suggestion that I switch to Ben instead of Matt and I have to go on this long spiel about never dating friends, hurt feelings and etc.  And all that crap.  At one point there is a mix of my ex-husbands group of people and Matt and Ben, just this large group of men and half of them go down the hall to play the Sega but they can also watch the action on the TV in the living room where I am.

I step outside for a moment and this guy is standing overhead somewhere like a train trestle or something and he is pissing into the wind.  I feel this spray across my face and I am looking at him like he is an asshole.  I take out a tissue to wipe my face off and there is red streaks on it.   I go in to the bathroom and I am looking at my face which looks very red and each time I wipe my face, red comes off on the tissue and I am trying to figure out if it is blood or from my skin or what.  The more I wipe, the redder the tissue gets.

I get the feel that I need to be leaving, like somebody is waiting for me.  My ex-husband is laying on the couch with the remote and I go over to say goodbye.  I end up leaning / laying on him (he is a big red-head) and as I am leaning across him I realize he is turning into Matt Damon again (partnering me up).  And I look down and my hair is the same color as the lines in his shirt.  He is wearing a dark blue shirt with bright orange lines through it.   My hair is very long, mid back and quite solid orange the color of a deep gold red, with a hint of pink.  I think I kiss him and leave.

Insights and Interpretations:
Well, the obvious block here is that it is too much information to process.  And, the metaphor about pissing in the wind doesn't make me very happy either. 

The red on the face occurred to me later that perhaps I was getting information that there is some Native American blood in my line.  As both of my parents are now dead and I never knew my grandparents, I don't know if this could be true or not.  However, I do know that the Native Americans used to do alot of dream work and I could be tapping into something that is in my "blood". 

Seems like, in direct correlation to the dream question that I might be having to clear alot of stuff with my past in order to remove the blocks to the lottery.  And, perhaps on this day it was more like pissing into the wind.  However, since this dream on October 23, I have had much more optimistic dreams in correlation to this subject and may be clearing them each night that I dream.

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October 12, 2000

I am in a vehicle and "we" are on a blind date...its me, my sister and one of my girlfriends and then there is "Bob and Tom"  In the car, Bob puts his hand in my crotch and I have to pick it up firmly and move it.  I think the friend arranged this blind date and we arrive at her apartment and are going up the stairs but we don't really know where she lives.  On the second floor, Bob says he thinks she lives in this apartment and the door is wide open already.  I am thinking to myself that it is odd that she didn't lock her door.  She finally comes up the stairs and says, "Oh, my apartment is on the third floor."  And she goes flying past us all and opens the door.  There is alot of weird awkwardness here because my sister is married and Bob is married and we are all on this blind date and even though "Bob and Tom" are famous, "we" don't really know them.  (I have dreamed about Tom before and it was a really cool merging of energies, so it is odd to me that this dream is so uncomfortable).  At some point, this thick set black woman shows up and she is really nice, very settled, and generous of spirit and it turns out that she is married to Tom.   There is a place where Tom goes to pass me and there's not alot of room but I draw way back as if I am afraid to let him touch me.  He acts like he doesn't notice (but I know that he does).  Anyway, we are going indoors / outdoors at random, I see at one point that "Bob and Tom" are in the car and it looks like a little VW and they look like little kids behind the wheel.  They want to drive around the apartment building in the grass and to so a couple of times and its pretty humorous to watch.   They don't seem so uptight right here.

Across the street from the apartment is a clubhouse.  I am on the lawn in front of the clubhouse and I am being followed and playfully attacked by the fattest little chunk of a puppy I have ever seen.  I hear this frantic chirp / bark, like a squirrel and I look over and I see a squirrel with a pouch.  I think it is carrying its young in the pouch but I watch as this barking continues and one little squirrel jumps out of the pouch.  Its almost full grown.  The mother kind of lets it play but it is curious and excited, and innocent and it runs over to where the puppy is and by now other animals have joined in, like kittens and maybe a raccoon, and they are all running, jumping and playing.   The mother runs in to try to urge the baby out of the mix.  I, meanwhile, am trying to do a cartwheel but can't seem to get my (big ass - hahaha) legs into the air and do a decent cartwheel.  I can go into a handstand and walk around on my hands but I can't seem to get the form down to do a decent cartwheel. 

There is an animal chase scene and there is an animal that everybody (all the other animals) seems to be chasing.  I try to coax it up but it gets spooked and keeps running away.  It is hiding behind the corner of my house and as I coax, it starts to come out and its body is shaped like a raccoon, it has the coloring of a squirrel and its face / head and its demeanor is like that of a cat.  It comes up and sniffs my hand looking for food and its eyes don't look scared.  They look calculated, judging and knowing.

Insights and Interpretations:
To me, since the cat represents the psychic, the first section is representing the fact that I am trying to close down a part of my abilities (cage it up).  The dream is also telling me that this is near impossible to do because the it is hidden in the infrastructure.  (Aren't dreams amazing they way they translate).  It might be telling me that for some reason, I think my psychi is dirty and that if I let it out it will make things dirty.  I had not thought of this before, but maybe that is a thought process that I need to take a look at.

The whole blind date thing is probably representing different aspects of myself and since it is using a vehicle to start it off...I am guessing that it will have to do with my work or this web page...something that is carrying me through.  Its very balanced in its choice of male and female counterparts.  The confusion and the awkwardness (if related to the web page) could be because I don't always feels that I know what I am doing...especially with the publication aspect.  And, I feel this is closer to what the dream represents because it is using famous people to tell me the story.  And, Tom was in a prior dream that the energy merged but here he is representing something that feels weird (afraid, something to avoid).  They are famous people so I am attaching this to the aspect of many people getting to know me though these pages.

Half the people are married already too which is another kind of screwy aspect...perhaps saying that parts of me are already enmeshed in this work and does know what it is doing (more so than I give it credit).  The best is where the boys are driving around looking like little kids...see, since I have been working with this dream stuff since I was a kid and pushed it down basically when I was a kid, this is telling me that I am reconnecting with the abilities I kind of froze up when I was little.  Freeing the little child inside and playing. 

The whole animal piece is pretty convoluted.  There are two important aspects here, one is the mix of the animals (raccoon, squirrel, cat) and the cartwheel.  The cartwheel has me stumped because the headstand would indicate that I have the ability to turn my world upside down and view it.  The cartwheel would be saying turn it upside down but view it upright...or something, almost like I don't need to turn it upside down to view it from a different perspective.  The animal...is a combination of the psychic, planning, playful curiosity aspect of each animal.  As a matter of fact, those qualities could be interchanged to some degree between each of those aspects of the animal.  And, it knows me already...knows all about me.

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October 15 / 16, 2000

Precursor:

I asked for the meaning of the significance of all the spiders that had been dropping into my dreams and on my dinner tables and on me personally.  I asked them to reveal the theme clearly and this is what followed.

The Dream:
Joyce was playing with tarot cards and Andy and Dennis are there.  I have to make myself stay and focus on Joyce because I still don't want to be around Dennis even in my dreams.

There is a big long confusing piece here that included 5 of my family members and 5 of another's family.  And, I thought it was somebody I dated but the kids were my age so I think it might have been somebody my mom dated.  The theme was you split up my family and now we are going to get you back.  They had one of my sisters in what looked like a perfectly normal apartment but it was barred up on the outside like a prison.  When I went to see her, she looked happy but was really being held prisoner in her own home.  One guy was real close to me and I thought he was my friend but he was one of the sons and his job was to undermine my confidence and as my life kept getting shittier and shittier, I realized I had to get out of this place.  He would tell me where are you going to go, what would you do as if I couldn't do anything different.  I told him it didn't matter because I had to go.

I was working someplace that had an automatic coin counter and I was trying to pour the coins through for a friend of mine (maybe Tina) and I had to pick out the dollar bills and a couple of gold dollars because they were bent.  I ran the coins through and when I went to look at how much, they were no longer coins in the slot but mail order items like a package of men's travel soap and deodorant, books, etc.  I realized that we work in a mail order catalog.

There is a ballroom and people are going out to sing one or two songs at a time.  I keep urging this guy that looks like Elvis to go sing or come sing with me.  He seems pretty arrogant like he knows he can sign and he doesn't care if anybody else knows.  I wanted to sing or dance or ice skate (I don't know - its a dream) and I don't see any ice but then you can do anything in a dream so I put on skates and I am trying to skate up this ramp.  People are looking at me like I am nuts.  I am still drawn to this Elvis guy.  I find I am dressed in a very long white gown and he is talking about me in a kitchen area and I am frozen in the doorway.  He comes over to me and says something about my ass, maybe, like if I want to get my ass in shape in reference to the ice skating.  He doesn't touch me but he leans in close and its very weird because something shifts.  I felt it like he thought I was a nuisance kid but now he is looking at me like I am a young woman.  I leave him but find I am peeking around stuff at him and it seems he might be looking for me.

Insights and Interpretations:
Well, it is trying to string together pieces here of my past.  The first boyfriend (bad experience) and my last boyfriend (current experience).  The tarot representing a selection of probability patterns.   Traditionally, spiders will represent the life path and how you can move about in your life and the connections we make.  I have been undermining my own self confidence in the past and needing desperately to move past those issues.  The needing to get my ass in shape could be meaning, literally, that I need to stop screwing around with stuff and move on.  Almost as if it is saying that my opportunity is awaiting me (not just waiting for me but searching for me) if I can just get out of my own way.

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October 14, 2000

Then I am micro-waving food for everybody.   Its beer and Pizza.  And I am thinking that the beer really shouldn't be in too long or the glass was going to get hot.  There is an altercation going on between the coach and one of the kids and the coach is quitting or something.  The next thing I know, the kids father is standing in the door and he looks upset as if he were late or wasn't planning to show at all but felt he had to support his kid.  He is saying that he would like to take the coaching position.

I am outside and there is a fence at the edge all around the school.  There is an old building that looks like a warehouse that I think was the school and near the fence where I am there is a big building that has been abandoned within the school yard for a really long time.  There is a way, I do it all the time, of climbing this power pylon? (looks like a mini-Eiffel tower) and get into the abandoned building.  I have a better view from this building and less exposure.

The other school building looks empty but there are big fancy cars and guys swarming around in dark sunglasses trying to keep people away.  I am wondering what is going on.  They look like a government operation.

There are people / guides talking to me and they are telling me that I need to go to other peoples dreams and help them.  I start to say that I can't do that when a part of my consciousness says, hey, wait a minute...who are these people and why would I say I can't help people in their dreams if that is what I am trying to do with my web page.  Then I see this flock of birds fly over and there are different types of birds in the flock and I think it means I should dream to groups of people.

Insights and Interpretations:
Short and sweet but maybe I am supposed to be like a "coach" to other people and help them with their dream process?   I dunno!

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October 3, 2000

The guy keeps morphing from people I know to a young guy I don't recognize.  He takes out a laptop and puts some keystrokes in and I see that he has set a bomb and he puts it on the secretaries desk and ask he is leaving he looks right at me and say,, "I love you."  And I say "I love you." and I know that he has set this bomb so I am huddled on the floor with my sisters behind a couch when one of my sisters starts sniffing me and asking me when I last washed my shirt.  I flash forward and think - nobody is gonna give a shit what my clothes smell like after this bomb goes off.  It seems like forever that I am waiting for this impact, for the bomb to explode and I keep wondering why I don't just get up and leave. 

When the secretary comes back the light goes off and in looking for a light source, she picks up the laptop and opens it and I hear her say, "Oh, Shit." really loud.  The lawyers start coming out of their meeting and asking her what is up and she says, "I think this is a bomb."  The bomb goes off and I feel this wave of heat and wind sort of pick me up and it ripples around me and darkness comes and that was the end of the dream.  There was absolutely no fear and no pain in this dream.

Insights and Interpretations:
Well, it would appear that I am headed for some sort of explosion.  Eh?  The intensely weird part of this dream was the eye contact made when the "I love you's." were exchanged.  I felt that he was trying to apologize for getting me caught up in this mess but he had no choice.  Hmmm, well you better go to Bomb #2, because it is sequential and happened the night after this one.

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October 4, 2000

It gets all weird here as if the bomb has effected the entire global world and the store has turned into a high building like 7 stories tall and is dark and kind of burned out and people are whining about their 5x7 square feet (as if they were entitled to it like two chickens and a car in the garage type of scenario).   I am thinking what kind of insanity is all this?

I am parked in this large parking lot looking for my yugo (Drowning Mona reference, I watched it Monday night).  I can't remember what color my yugo is but it had a sun roof.  I end up in a vehicle with this man and I guess he is my boyfriend but I find I am asking when we really ever had a date, I mean really a date.   And, I flash back 4 or 5 years to when he used to take me to plays, to the symphony or opera, concerts and I think yeah we used to have dates.  And he suddenly begins to look like Tom Cruise and he is talking about how he has too many of the "Dog Wiener Painters Pants" (whatever that is, they look like khaki gap pants).  And he is waiting for his wife to call because it is near his birthday and he thinks of some really cool things she can buy him.  But she never calls, because apparently they have been fighting and she is too upset to call, so in kind of a depressed funk...she goes out and buys him (guess what?) more pairs of "Dog Wiener Painters Pants".

I am showing somebody this city after the bomb and homeless people are scurrying around to collect cans and cash them in before the machines run out of money or quit all together and this old woman makes eye contact with me.  We exchange this smile, a really warm smile, as if we knew each other but we don't.   Then as I watch everybody picking up cans I am explaining to the person I am with that it seems no matter how bad things get, I always seem to find change. I start picking up pennies and at least one quarter, a nickel and more change from off the ground. I probably end up with a handful of change.

Insights and Interpretations:
The crust of this whole dream is in the last stanza....No matter what happens I always seem to find change.  I think this means change as in different things not coinage.  That seems to be a metaphor for my life.  You see, compared to dream Bomb #1, this bomb is much lighter - even though it has more far reaching effects...global even  is what it indicates in the dream.  The important message for me is that the explosion (as it were) will not be as big of a deal as it was even yesterday.  And, I still come out ok.  The first bomb was in a computer and the second bomb was in a toy.  I feel like that should mean something but I don't really know what at the moment.  Perhaps in a few days some of this will be clearer.  Hindsight is always much easier to interpret.  Since this is my second night in a row with the "explosive" situation, I am wondering if it will come again tonight (or if it will be so subtle that I won't even recognize it as a bomb dream this time).

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October 17, 2000

Preface:

I asked for specific guidance on the Lottery and removing blocks.  This is the dream I had.

The Dream:
In a post office area Liz and Jennifer are distributing political pamphlets.  Joan Waggoner comes up and asks how much time we have spent and they say a couple of hours each night.  After Joan leaves, I tell them we should just do Joan's street and screw the rest of it.  Someone steps up to the counter and asks if they can buy stamps in the next room and the clerk says that area is for International packages.

There is a group of old high school classmates (I see Barb Aliff that I can recognize awake) singing (something like Give Peace a Chance) and they are putting together an album for one of the running mates and I ask them what the scoop is.  Did none of them ever get divorced, none of their parents ever divorce, how can they vote for this candidate and his "Family Values", and I think it might have been the republican party.

I am on a beach and somebody has a cell phone that I am talking into.  I hand it back and as I sit down I see another cell phone in the water and I pick it up and ask if it is their cell phone and see that they are still using their cell phone.  So, I turn it on and it works.  I think I pick up a piece of conversation and I am laying on the beach, in a pile, like with at least 2 other people.

We leave the beach area and there are emergency personnel all over the streets and I can't tell where they have blocked off but I keep thinking maybe I can take back roads and negotiate around it.

We are in our old trailer and somebody has just gotten married and my sister shows me the closet and my clothes are there and there are stains like an old blood stain on my long white nightgown.  I tell my sister it sucks because the gown is ruined and she says no way, that my stains are like art work.   Then she pulls out another tank top and shows me a little coffee stain.  I don't think I agree.  I can't quite get in the closet well so she helps me move the dresser out of the way and the parents have moved a big king size bed in the middle of the room and it swamps the entire bedroom.

Insights and Interpretations:
Well, I don't know.  I spent alot of time this week asking for guidance for different people and I ended up with dreams that didn't make alot of sense to me.  There was a number 55 somewhere in the text of the dream but I have no idea where it was or what it meant.  If I take this as literal instruction on how to remove my blocks then I would say that I need some sort of medical assistance (psychological - hahaha) to remove them.  I am getting messages via communications (Cell Phone) and that maybe I need to work with other people to accomplish this end.  Oddly enough, I woke up today (October 22 and sent an e-mail out to some of my friends asking if they wanted to pool in on Wednesdays lottery.)  We shall see how that works out.  I will try this again on a different date and see if there are any parallels that I can zone in on.  If you have any ideas, for goodness sakes, send me an e-mail.

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October 13, 2000

I am at work and talking to Kevin and Rod.   Kevin is trying to schedule his vacation and he says he is going to visit friends in Atlanta and we pull out a map and its right next to DC.  It turns out that Rod is visiting a friend of his the first week-end so he can drop Kevin off and then Kevin can take a bus home.  I decide since I have people there that I might tag along and it becomes this group thing.

I am in a big room like a cafeteria and Raquel hands me Joanne's class ring and she is asking me questions like she doesn't know about Andy.  Her class ring is really cool.  I tell her so.  Joanne says it is a tiger eye / Blue Star Sapphire mix and when I tilt it to the light, it throws out a green and indigo prism instead of a full rainbow.  It has 1981 on it.  We are all sitting at a table with many others around us and there is a lot of commotion and we are going through the Sunday paper.  I tell Joanne if she ever moves again, she cans end her mail to our address as everybody else does (sarcasm).

My mom is there and she is saying how she just keeps watching society and she hopes it to see it return to the innocence of her youth in the 50's.  I tell her that our consciousness as a society "stretched" in the 60's and that it can never go back to the way it was before.  In this case, its not like a rubber band and our society will never be able to return to that innocence because it is now "locked" into our consciousness as a group.

Insights and Interpretations:

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October 10, 2000

I am on a college campus, parking lot and I am so tired all I can think about is parking some place close to the exit and sleeping for awhile.  I am driving across lines apparently and next thing I know, this young cop has pulled me over and I am handing him my drivers license and registration and his is kind of lecturing me but I can tell he is apologetic about it.   He walks away to his car and I start trying to fill out a deposit ticket and I have like 4 of them and I only need 2 but I keep making mistakes.  The cop comes back and hands me my stuff and a deposit ticket and he says he is going to let me go without a ticket and that he pulled me over because he thought I was somebody else and that he is sorry.  I go back to working on my deposit ticket, the girl next to me is sleepy and I remember how tired I am and then I realize that I am now in a classroom and I am still trying to total this deposit ticket.  I am getting the account number confused but I think I finally get the totals right and its like $1300 or so.  I start focusing on this class, it hasn't started yet, or when did it start, had I missed many classes, was tonight a test night.

I look at my wedding ring and I think the stone is missing.  I am looking around on the floor but I keep thinking of all the places I have been and I don't think I will ever find it if I lost it in the last day.  While I am looking, there are a couple of girls I knew from high school on the floor and they ask me if I have seen an earring one of them has lost.   I see two sparkling things on the floor and Ii point them out but they have two sets and what I see is what they have already found.  As I am pointing out the one pile with 3 earrings in it, one girl runs her hand across the pile and about 3 inches from it I see something move and it was the lost earring.

I am in a large hotel for a meeting and I go to the meeting but when it is done, I can't find my room key.   I am kind of in a panic, how will I get in and I can't even remember my room number, what floor was it on.  I think the room number is 827 or 825 and I run to the room and somebody is sleeping in the bed.  I kind of touch them, shake them, and they roll over and I get a rush of memory that I left the room unlocked for my friend to get in and I forgot she was coming.  She is thanking me for leaving the door opened.

We are on a bus, all the gang from work, and one guy is telling me that he is on vacation and when he gets back to work, after two weeks he has to take more time off to have  tooth pulled.   I ask if he has told the bosses because they have to plan production with him off.   And, he says no not yet.  We pull up to a guard / pay shack and we have to fork out $1.50 each so everybody is digging around in the purse or pockets for their dollar fifty when the bosses pay for it.  And we are all like what do we do with our buck fifty.  Our office is a huge store like place and the boss is talking about how to remodel the employee break area so that store customers wont think it is an area they can hang out it.  That it is for employees only.

Insights and Interpretations:
The first section is indicating that my prosperity level will not be as high by Halloween as it will be by Christmas.  I feel that pretty strongly.

The second piece about the ticket is really more focused on the deposit than the cop.  I think it is apologizing and warning me that my finances will not be as large or as easy to manage as I might have thought.  It is an indication that I kind of need to keep my eye on this area.

I am very tired of dealing with some of the same old lessons, and here I am in a classroom.  The same old song and dance, am I late, is there a test, I don't even know what the damn class is.   That's not unusual for people, like me, who can't remember what their life purpose is.  I show up but I can't remember what for.  We are looking for the value here...first my rings stone and then the earrings.  I am helping other people find something of value but I can't seem to help myself.  Again, with the hotel, I am being thanked for my help from my friend.  I can't remember where I am supposed to by or how I got there, but when I do find it...I find that I have helped somebody and I don't even remember doing it.

The last piece indirectly has to do with my work and taking time off.  Its a situation I am in currently with my employer having to schedule around my time off.  We come up to pay for something and they pay for it.  Maybe they are considering new benefits for us as a group.  Then the remodeling of the break area, I believe is a forwarding that changes are coming and we will just have to wait to see how those changes pan out.

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October 24, 2000

Preface:

I asked where or how I can find my money.

The Dream:
This starts with a small scene from like Christmas.  We have a box of stockings for Christmas.  I think I am at my moms house and a bunch of us are there and she is concerned that we have enough blankets because they are not going to turn the heat on.  It feels like there were real flying lessons involved, like in a small plane and everything up around the airport off 96th street here in Indy.

I go to meet Carl for lunch and his house is full of women.  I thought he was going to do some body work on me too but some girl shows up and he suddenly has to leave.  So I am with these 2 guys (the two I am with keep changing characters) bitching because Carl basically dumped me and we end up at the circle and we are walking around the mall.  I have an iced tea from the pizza place and then I go "Gee, I would really like a fat brownie."  So we go to this sweet shop and I pay for the brownie but its kinda small so I go, well can I have the other one and the lady says sure the brownie is kind of small.  I think Andy and Tanya are with me at this point.  The lady gives me back $14 in change out of a $20.   (That's an expensive brownie)

So I am walking back to Carl's house and its kind of dark and there is an old guy in a red shirt singing and walking in the same direction.  He seems kind of like Carl, and I don't feel threatened.  There is a piece where I am closing in on him, even in high heels with my long legs, and I step on something that looks like a tape recorder.  It turns out that the guy is Carl and I tell him how upset I was about being blown off and we end up back at the pizza place.   We have to cut across a large parking lot / gas station that is under construction and back at the pizza place, it turns into like a Ferris wheel.  But the bars are stationary, very odd to describe.  We are inside and when it turns we can only get into the seats by standing through the opening and jumping in before it turns again.   I can not think of anything real that it might be compared to.  But I make it in and Carl is starting to look like he might just pass on the whole attempt.  And I think that is all I got.

Insights and Interpretations:
You might have guessed already that looking at your own dreams might be a bit complicated.  Especially somebody like me that almost needs an encyclopedia to decipher some of this stuff.  Its like cracking code. 

To the question at hand, we have a Christmas reference here again.  It has happened at least two other times.  So maybe there will be money coming at Christmas time.  I keep getting food references in my dreams a lot lately too.  This could be representing some sort of nourishment, for the spirit or soul or something.  My interpretation of the Ferris wheel contraption is that it is an opening / an opportunity in time where things are adjusting like the combination on a lock and when those things line up...I will just jump right in.   I might be getting some female energy to help me with this endeavor.

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October 29, 2000

Insights and Interpretations:
As you might have noticed by looking at the last few days dreams, I am getting a string of disconnected dreams.  Some of them I can't even remember due to the number that I am getting.  I think this dream is talking to me specifically and in the last night or two, I remember recalling that phrase during the dream sequence to slow myself down in the dream.  I try to remember when I am awake too so I don't push myself or over do too much.  The rushing around and processing of information has had the effect of erasing what I am dreaming about at night.   Sometimes all I can remember is waking up feeling very happy, even though I am not feeling very happy when I am awake during these days.

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October 17, 2000

Preface:

I asked how I could go help my friend Carole in my dreams.

The Dream:
I am at a farm, a barn or something and when I look up...I realize it looks very much like Carole's garage (big 4 car garage, like a barn) and I am having a conversation.  I am invisible and I can't see Carole but I am talking to somebody and I think it is her.

We (still invisible) are on 465 heading east from the northside, and there is construction (surprise surprise).  They haven't put up the cones yet and the lanes merge and we have to go from the left lane to the middle lane.  They put the pylons down as we drive by.  There is a beat up van and two cars pulled off to the right hand side of the road.

There is a piece here that involved Tanya and shooting something but I have no recollection at all about it.

The next thing is we are downtown in front of the courthouse or government building.  There is a magician, an old man, who is showing us tricks.  I am visible now but I still can't see Carole.  I have a headache.  Apparently the magician has a headache too because he asks for some aspirin.  I just took some plain old aspirin and offer that too him but he says no and some woman with short dark hair steps up with a bottle of extra strength Excedrin.  They are little blue pills though.  He continues with his act.  We are on the sidewalk and it looks like he is operating out of a hot dog vending type of cart.

Insights and Interpretations:
I asked Carole if she remembered anything and she said all she knew is that she felt really busy that night.  A few nights later, we agreed to try to connect up again.  I wanted to be able to help her with some of her nightmares.  I don't remember meeting up with her a few nights later but what she told me she dreamed was this.

She is in the ocean, clinging to a buoy and she is being circled by sharks (she is terrified of sharks since she was a little girl for no reason that she can remember).  She said all of a sudden, I come zooming across the water in a speedboat and pick her up.  As we speed away, she looks back and the sharks are still circling the buoy.

Andy said, so the sharks aren't after her...they are after what she is clinging too?  I think that is phenomenal insight.   At any rate, Carole says she feels like she is moving away from some stuff really quickly.

Personally, I find this exercise kind of fun and very interesting.

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October 22, 2000

There is a guy who mailed something he should not have and he is asking me where my outgoing mail is so I point him to my desk and as he is opening pieces, I realize there a two pieces (3 really as a maxim magazine is folded around another magazine) addressed to my sister.  Only she is me and she is sending them to herself (I have no idea).  One piece is some insurance paperwork on the house and Frank has somehow ended up as a primary signer and she is trying to correct it...bitching about how could he have been moved to primary signer with out her being told about it and signed the paperwork.  The second is a card of some sort where she is making copies to herself.  The phone rings and she is like, oh shit "they know", meaning her in-laws.  She says she has to leave RIGHT NOW because it is already 8 in the evening and they are going to know.  Meanwhile the guy is still opening outbound mail and resealing them and I said did you already seal the one to Tanya and he said yeah why?  And I said well, we could have put the two together and saved postage.

We are in the parking lot of a movie theatre?  We are with a group, young adults, teen'ish.  One guy has a suped up Nova, mag tires, jacked up back-end, dark blue and very hot looking.  Definitely a hot rod, pick up chicks car.  Well it is sort of parked somewhere it should not be parked between the ticket agent and the door which is wrong and this little chick, who is hot for the driver goes to move the car.  He must have set the emergency brake and like 3 other types of stopping devices (though I don't know what they would have been).   She gives it gas and it squeals over to the corner of the lot.  Everybody is like WOW that was cool but she gets out and looks at the tires and they are smoking.   She is wondering if this guy is going to be pissed.  She / I want to touch (I become her now for some reason) and I want to touch the tire but I can see it is still hot.  I can read the writing on the tire but its not real clear what kind they are (I mean, I can't remember it actually as I saw it clearly in the dream). 

Suddenly, we are in the garage and Andy is showing me how to change the oil in this cool Nova.  Even though, I know he just changed it the day before.  He is pouring the oil through a filter and it is pretty darn clear.  I ask, "You gonna fry me a chicken in that?"  And, I started laughing and woke myself up.

Insights and Interpretations:
Here is my hope:  That the three A's in the passport is an indication of where I will be traveling in the near future...at least, that is what I am telling everybody it means.  Teehee.

It could be making a reference to a new job for me.  The new souped up car (vehicle) can be a new mode of transportation for me.  Something I will probably like quite a bit.  The whole changing the oil thing...you know, I don't know but that line has stuck in my head and I think Andy is getting tired of me asking him if he is going to fry me a chicken in that....It was so damn funny at the time.  (I am still amused).

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 October 16, 2000

Insights and Interpretations:

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 October 26, 2000

I have a vague recall of dark halls and maybe a bathroom at a high school or something.

I am at a department store with Tanya and Randy.  And, I am trying to find some high density 2 sided floppies but I keep finding hard drives instead.  I am carrying around something in a red wrapper and I think it was a 100,000 dollar bar.

Insights and Interpretations:
Needless to say, I thought I woke up and won the lottery for $100,000 but that was not the case.  However, if the rest of the dream holds true then perhaps it is delayed as was suggested in the first part of the dream.  That I should have gotten something out sooner but it went out later.

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 October 9, 2000

I meet my oldest friend for lunch at the school cafeteria.  I am getting rice crispy treats and a chocolate shake.  When she shows up and says she doesn't have any cash and thought we would go out so she could get some money.  Since I already have my food, I tell her to go get her money and I will wait for her and save her a seat.  She either tells me or I can see that she is pregnant.  There is a string of information about the doctor who didn't think she had something but then said she was pregnant.  I look around and the only places to sit are with people nobody else will sit with.  Well, even though I don't want to be seen with them, I don't mind them and even kind of like them sometimes.  I go sit with one of them and there is a group of 4 or 5 and we get up to go sit with them (this is the geeky bunch in high school that nobody wanted to sit with so they all sat together).

I am in my old house but it has new carpet like my current home and there is about to be a party and I see this burn mark on the floor and I keep talking to people about the burn mark but everybody keeps telling me they don't know anything about it but i get the feeling that they do know something.  My best friend acts all innocent, but knowing and I think that Howler knows how it happened.  There was once a shooting range in the kitchen and I am trying to visualize this fitting, again.  I am looking for drinking glasses when I pull out a big bowl and a spider falls out still attached to the bowl and I drop it on the floor (repeatedly) trying to knock the spider off.  Then I put the bowl back on the shelf.

I am dreaming about IVM, they have a new client and I am looking at an e-mail that has the territories of the new client and I am wondering if I can do the travel the company needs when these office girls start asking me what to do with their check run.  I am like, look I don't work here anymore (I think I said I had not been there for a year but it has been more like two) and last I heard, they were filing them by batch.  Then two women (black) are talking about Atlanta and the older one was saying how she thinks she is going to do what I suggested.  It was a good idea that she move back to Atlanta (and I see this flash of an apartment in Atlanta and how she used to have fun when she used to live there years ago.)

We are buying vending items and the older woman is trying to decide on cheeze-its or some other item.   Well, the cheeze-its are already open so she sticks with those.  For some reason, I decide I need to leave so I try to climb out the window (which is ground level outside) and I find myself pushing through this window and I am laying on the grass outside the building.

A big group of us are going fishing / sight seeing / something and we are on this boat like the Mississippi Delta and we are being dragged by another boat.  I get this idea that I can lean to one side and the big boat will sling out and it will be like we are skiing.   I do this but it seems kind of dangerous so I stop.

Insights and Interpretations:
I think this is telling me that I am returning to something I once new.  The old setting with the high school and the realization is that "hey, I am one of the geeks."  I am pregnant here (best friend represent aspect of the self) and I am going to give birth to something. 

My house has aspect of the old and the new...this new reality I am creating is housing aspects of the old self and the new self.  What is this firing range, eh?  I pick up a bowl with a spider, which again indicates that I am on a proper life path, following some set road maps that have been put down for my journey. 

The work stuff is a prelude to the boat dream where it is telling me that I have ridden on the back of each experience from job to job.  It is also indicating that this might not be in my best interest in the future.

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October 21, 2000

I am in an office.  I feel like I might be the only one left on the payroll (RMI reference) but people are there I know, helping me out.  I am supposed to go to dinner with Sandra but its sushi and usually Carole is my sushi partner so I am confused.  Sandra says she really has plans with somebody else and would it be ok if she passed.  I say yes because I now think I am having sushi (it must be with Carole).  Sandra goes to get me some Gelato and it is all melted when she gets there.  I am scooping some into a coffee cup but it is all runny and I am thinking I really don't want to eat /  drink this.

I am on a car lot.  I think I want to buy a new car or at least somebody wants to sell me a new car.  I see some very attractive things but the details are very vague.  One may have been a red, black top convertible, might have been a Jaguar (do they make those?  I'd be in heaven).   For some reason I think I might have ridden in the backseat of the car.  (Do Jags have backseats?)

I somehow have a steak and I think I am at a restaurant with Andy.  I don't remember how I got here.  We shift and are dropping somebody at a friends house and Janet come out and Tanya's old boss Lori.   And, I am like, "I didn't know you lived here"  I mean, I knew she lived there but I didn't know she lived there with Lori and as we are walking in, Janet's parents are leaving to go out and her dad is dressed in a black tux and her mom is dressed in a white almost wedding gown looking dress.  They seem happy and surprised to see me.  They are friendly but in a hurry.  We have carry out and we sit down at the coffee table and I think its Chinese but as I am getting ready to eat I realize I am cutting into Andy's steak from the restaurant.  I am like are you sure you don't want this and he is like I might take a bite or two but I am not really hungry.

Shifts to my current office and Scott is there asking me if I can re-fill out a form, HR form, I did 6 months ago.  He forgot to take it in and now they are asking that he re-verify salary and stuff.  I think the only paper work I had done 6 months ago was for Brandon but I take it and as I am looking at it - I realize the bottom of the form is filled with 4 cups of pudding.  Jell-O, whatever.  I think, oh yeah I remember this.  Those were good too.  At least they sent me new cakie things to refill the form.  I tell Scott to leave it and I will get to it later that day.

Well, suddenly it becomes a food fest.   I look up and there is a table in my office and it has rice krispy treats on it.   (I got to go make some of those as this is the third time it has shown up).  I start salivating and I tell somebody to hand me one.  They try to hand me a single one and I go no hand me the whole package.  There are like 4 packs of 6 each.  I think Pat made them for me because she heard me talking about them in my dreams.  I bite into it and at first it is a rice krispy treat but as I keep eating, it is more like a donut and I am thinking where is the cream filing because I like the ones with maple icing and cream custard type filling but It remains a regular yeast donut.  Then more people are showing up and my boss comes in and there are a stack of cards and envelopes which she tells me to throw away.  I am like why that doesn't make sense and she says "Well, we went through and pulled out all of the Hanukkah stuff because we don't have any Jewish people here so those can be thrown away."  I am like ok, that's sound logic but what if we ever have Jewish people but, oh well, I threw them in the trash.

There is a kitchen behind my office and its just a big eating party by now.  There is fruit all over, grapes, watermelon, hot dogs.  I see hot dog buns and hamburger buns but I don't remember seeing hamburgers but assume they will use the buns for tuna salad, egg salad or whatever is available.   I am eating a piece of sausage / hot dog and I try to feed it to the dogs (there are three of them) and not one of the dogs will eat it.  I can't figure it out, it tasted fine and I didn't drop it on the floor but they sniff and lick it then turn away.   Well, since they licked it, I didn't want to eat it so I throw it away.  I go back to my office and its starting to look a little crazy because I realize I only work 4 days per month and there is all this work to do.  I start looking for Scott's form to fill out and it is buried.

Insights and Interpretations:
This is too long for me to add much here.   I will say that the first part is probably a warning that I will be delving into some muddy emotional waters for me.  Could be dangerous (do I look scared?)

The only other comment I will add is that I was watching Ghost Dog the other night and he drives off in a Red convertible Jaguar (yes, they do make them and with a back seat).  Weird huh?

Oh, yeah, and I got my rice krispy treats on Sunday because I made Andy go out and buy the ingredients so I could make them.

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October 11, 2000

Insights and Interpretations:
That could be indicating starting on a new venture yourself and not being sure you have all the facts to start with.  Hence looking up the facts in an encyclopedia.  Not much information to work with here but even so, it can show that you are starting a new venture and that there might be some insecurities around it.

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October 19, 2000

The Dream:
There is a mattress on the ground with sheets on it and I go over to remake the bed because the sheets are all tangled up.   And it looks like somebody just tossed the mattress, sheets and all, off the bed frame.  After I remake it, I think my mom comes up and tells me we are going to have to move it again.  I felt very frustrated.

I am someplace like a state park and we are in the gift shop.  Everything looks rustic.  Leslie and maybe Marsha are there.  I want to buy Halloween candy, there are some pre-packed jack-o-lantern and chocolate stuff and rice crispy treats (wish I knew what those meant) and I am looking for more candy.  Leslie is trying to build a basket, she has 2 roses (the roses look kind of dead and it reminds me that I was joking with Howler about making a birthday present out of them and the dying balloon in the living room for Brian's birthday) in it already and I am telling her to fill it up with candy around the roses and make a nice little gift out of it.  I pay for my candy then leave the store.  There is something going on with the roof  and I think this is a Matt Damon area.  There is a concern on which direction we should go and it feels like we are on a historical vacation of some sort.

I remember a piece of lucid dream also where I came slightly out of sleep and realized I could not remember earlier dreams of the night and I am cursing in my sleep because I can't remember them.

Insights and Interpretations:
Perhaps Matt is showing me direction.   The historical content could be telling me that Carole and I have a history together maybe even past life history and we might be looking for the good parts of that.   Like the candy, the rice crispy treat.  I find the cursing at the end (it was probably in the middle) to be amusing because I have been frustrated about the dreams I have been having that are being concealed before I awaken.

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October 11, 2000

The house is on a beach and my sisters have been swimming with these three children for most of the day.  I decide that I better find out what the rest of the family is doing and head to our beach cabin.  I meet this young teen boy on the way and he is asking if I have something and I tell him I think it is under my bed.  As I am walking along, I start feeling my lip twitch and I think to myself how I wished I had some lip gloss and some L-Lysine but I am on vacation so I don't have any of it with me.  I get to the cabin and they guy is dragging out stuff from under the bed and he says, "I thought you said you had L.S. (atlas?) (lord Satan) (little sister).  I said well there are all kinds of maps and publications under there, won't one of them work.  Road maps for different cities, I pull out a couple of travel magazines for New Orleans and ask him, "won't any of these work?"  He says yeah, he might be able to make it work and that he wants the New Orleans stuff for sure.

So we have plans to go to the amusement park and I am about to square it off with my aunt and she says she just ordered a pizza for us for dinner and that she has a date and won't be back in time for the amusement park.  I look at her date and its "Bob Barker" He looks really old.  I go over and kiss him on the cheek and shake his hand and he is kind of awkward and pulls out his salesman motif and starts selling me on where he is taking my aunt and all.  

Well the pizza is there, half pepperoni and half sausage.  Its not bad, the sausage is finely ground and tastes pretty darn good.  The phone rings and I answer and this lady asks me if "Roy is still there."  No, I said, he left quite a while ago...before 6 and now its 6:38.  She laughs and says he must be all the way to 36 by now.  It is his mom.  I don't know either of these people I realize as she is talking to me.  I hang up and go eat more pizza, as I get full I decide to go down to the beach and tell my sisters about the change in plans.

There is a weird money piece with the pizza, like you pay for this and I will pay for that later and it will all shake out in the end.  I don't have any idea what was going on, because it seemed to me that I was still going to end up paying more in the long run.

Insights and Interpretations:
Delving into the emotional depths, and it might take work (hence the exercise equipment).  Basically, it is saying hold off for now (or that I want to hold off for now). 

The whole map piece, I think is connected.   Basically, its saying...gosh if its someplace I have been before, then maybe I will give it another shot.  If its not someplace I have been emotionally, then I am not sure I am willing to go there.  This is a vacation after all, and I don't want to do anything strenuous.

There is nourishment for me.  The popping up of another famed person indicating that I have the ability to gain recognition.   The odd thing about the phone call is that it made no sense to me...except to note that I am turning 36 this year.  And, the piece I can't remember is fairly accurate for relationships in my entire life.  The exchange process of you cover this, I will get this later.  And, sometimes I do feel short changed but for the most part...I think it comes out even and I think the dream is telling me that I can expect some paybacks for support I have given in the past.

Addendum:
Three days later, on a Friday, I woke up with the fever blister on the exact place on my lip that I felt it twitch.  I finally gave into my urgings on Thursday and took the L-Lysine but it was too late.  Next time, I will pay attention if it tells me to take herbs for something.

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October 15, 2000

The mother is crone-like and you see her bundling the daughter up and she stands her before this corn field.  The father and the leader of the killing group are sitting on top of a hill and they can see everything from their vantage point.  They chat friendly because they grew up together and they have no animosity toward each other even though they disagree on this issue.  The watch the old woman (mother) send the daughter into the cornfield.  The mother says she must run to safety and they will find her later.  I get the sense that they are hoping the girl will shift from fear.  The girl disappears into the corn and the mother takes to the sky as a hawk.  There is a woman at the edge of the field who shifts to a cat creature and takes off into the corn after the daughter.

The next we see the daughter is running in a stream and overhead is the mother flying and in her arms she is carrying the dead naked body of the woman who had gone after her daughter into the corn field as a cat.  They are flying in the air as people but I sense it may have been the animals that we actually see flying.  The daughter sees beyond the illusion to the real humans in the air.

There is a school hall and on the wall is a straight lined glyph that looks like an angel.  The impression is that the daughter drew the picture on the wall to represent the last time she saw her mother.  She is still waiting for her parents to come and claim her.

Insights and Interpretations:
Well, I think I might be the daughter represented here.  Perhaps there is a part of me that is still waiting for somebody (a group of people I care about) to come find me.  This is true fantasy storytelling.   It might even be a story passed down in some culture.  The image I saw as a glyph seemed like it might have been the message of angels.  Maybe I am waiting for my angels to find me.  Its too whimsical for me to really make a solid impression.

Visitor Insights:
Amber Wrote: I went to the shape shifter dream.  My interpretation is as follows:  Yes you are the girl in the dream and being forced into doing something that is not right for you at this time.  The mother looking over her daughter is showing that she cares enough to save her as well as the burdens that any mother carries for allowing the daughter to choose her own path i.e. the corn field.   The father & family friend is the sentinel that stands guard allowing the path to be taken without interference from family or friends.  The shape shift of black cat is the fears of the daughter that pursue her even though she is trying to make it alone. As you can see even the mother tries to vanquish her child's fears so that the child can go further along the path without obstacles.  The glyth is the symbol of the girls life that is written on the wall of life to show her path to all.  Waiting for the parents to see what she made of the life path she has chosen.  The glyph is the symbol of her life after she has chosen & run the path and vanquished her fears and allows all to see, it is why it is important.

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October 15, 2000

I am vacationing in this cabin.  My whole family is there including cousins and kids.  Abby too.  There was tons of food.  I know that I need to go to bed early because I have to leave early in the morning.  When I get up my sisters are crashed all over the place and I start getting some food together, eggs, waffles, and I realized I did the dishes the night before.   I see my cousin coming with her kids and one of the kids says something like "wake up sleepy head" which was a reference to when I was little and we were all visiting my grandmother. 

There is some talk of money.  Tanya is the happiest I have ever seen her and Sherrill needs money.  I start to offer but its not my money, its Tanya's and then Tanya says "do you want me to lend you some money?" and Sherrill says that would be great.

I am walking with Andy, and we are walking home.  I wanted to go one way and he said no, lets go this way.  So I am like Ok Whatever.  The first thing I see is a quarter stuck in tar.  So I pry it out and there is another quarter underneath this.  The hole keeps getting wider and there are more quarters.  I keep pulling them out but I realize farther down they aren't really quarters at all but little trinket boxes.  Andy says come on, we better go cause the food truck is coming.  (And, he thought it might run me over?)  I kind of have this weird thought like maybe it belongs to somebody or this is a trap.  As we walk along, I open the little boxes and each one has big pretty jewels in it.  One big green one and one big purple one.  I think a smaller red one.  I show them to Andy and I am excited to see what is in the others. 

We come to a subway sandwich shop and the owner comes out and says where did he go?  And I am like who?  He says some guy just packed up 79 sub sandwiches under my name and just left without paying for it.   I am like I don't know anything about it.  He acted like he wanted me to pay for it or something and he's really angry.  I am sick of this and I tell him I am leaving, its not my fault he is stupid.  He lights a match and sets it on the newspaper and I try to blow it out but he is looking at me all mean and I realize that he wants to catch the the place on fire so he can burn the shop down and get the insurance money.   I tell him this is crazy and I won't be a part of it and I leave.

As I am continuing my walk home, Andy got lost around the sandwich shop.  The little boy from 6th sense is there with me and he says I should go to this house I am passing by.  I don't want to because I just want to get home.  The kid says but there are people in this house that hate me.  (He says it like in the movie...I see dead people and they don't even know they are dead - to There are people here who hate me, and I don't even know they hate me - I found it amusing to say the least.) Well, I am kind of upset about this.  Who hates me, and why do they hate me, what did I do?  The kid seems kind of upset about it but he is urging me to go to this house and I see people peeping out of the windows and I tell the kid I am not going there.  I don't even know these people and if they want to hate me then that's their stuff not mine and I am going home.  I get the sense here that way back near the beginning of the dream, I would have been better off to have taken the first path home but I didn't and maybe it was meant to mislead me.

Insights and Interpretations:
I have gotten this scenario before of being mislead on on the wrong path.  The whole hate thing is not a part of my vocabulary and if ever there were a person out there who hated me, I don't know them.   The fact that the kid is a movie actor makes me look at the aspect that these are props and perhaps what I am seeing is illusion on what people feel about me or how I think they feel about me.  I like that I am digging for treasure but then, finding change in dreams has never been a problem for me.  I just keep watching out for it.

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October 6, 2000

I am speaking to my best friends husband and he is telling me that he is concerned about his wife.  He says, "I got money in the bank," and he looks around like its a secret, "But she acts like its ok to buy shrimp." (like she spends his money like there is no tomorrow on frivolous things she doesn't need.

Shift again and we are in this charming little vacation cabin and the vacation is just about to begin.  And I am looking around at the gingham check green and red curtains and table clothes and thinking how cozy it is.   I go to check out the bedroom and I see that the room was built right in the middle of an old running creek.  It has been raining for days and I am looking out the window and the creek is really full.  I realize as I am walking across the floor that every time I take a step, water spurts up into the air.  For some reason, I think maybe the bed has a leak, and then I take another step and it squirts me right in the face.  Well, I leave the room and I am thinking, there is no way I can stay in this place with the whole corner of the room under water and I am just about to debate this with the woman who rented the cabin.

Shift, I see these bodies that are dead.   They are swelling up and the mystery is why are they dying?  I am fixing soup and somebody looks into my soup pan and points out these teeny weenie little spiders.   The next scene is a guy in the bathroom with his pants around his ankles and he suddenly becomes aware of a couple of little spiders and at this point I think the town is aware that the epidemic and the dead people are coming from the spiders.  Well, this man on the John tries to get up but they are so fast that the next thing we know we are opening the door to the bathroom and he has tripped and fallen into the empty bathtub and the spiders have already killed him.

Insights and Interpretations:
The dog represents loyalty and maybe even tenacity because of the way he is pursuing the fish.  The fish begin to attack which might mean that something I am pursuing out of loyalty is a false pursuit.  The husband talking about his wife might be cautioning me to reserve my resources and not to spend money on things I don't need.  The vacation place, is a symbol of rest and relaxation, I finally get a chance to get away but I am suddenly having to deal with all these leaky emotions.  It looked like the right idea at the time, but I am finding that I have just a little bit of water I have to wade though or I can't enjoy myself.   The spiders are significant to me because they represent the life path.  And, no matter how many times I try to get away, I am having to let things die around me in order to stay on the path.  Wow!  I just did this analysis and interpretation as I sat here so this is the first time I am actually seeing what was being presented.   Soup is representing nourishment too, in this case, probably spiritual nourishment.

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October 28, 2000

I am climbing old, wide, dark stairs.   I seem to have dropped some of my laundry and as I go to pick it up, the guy upstairs has dropped crap on it.  I am disgusted but I pick my stuff up and proceed up the stairs.

My brother is telling me how when my father died, my father had boobie trapped his money and valuables all over the house.   He said he was shown 3 places where stuff was stashed and we had to find the rest of them.  One was the edging of the shed and if you pressed just right a hidden compartment slide open and I think he said the first thing he found was a satellite dish (?).

IVM scenario, Jamie (my old boss) is gone.   I am hanging out before anybody gets there so I can talk to Phil.  Then the girls start arriving.  I see Phil and he is busy.  I tell him I came to talk to him and to call if he needs anything.  As I leave, he says its too bad we really don't have any positions available.  I say its ok, because I didn't want (need) a job.

Looking for food and I am in a truck with Bob Malicote and Doug (?).  There are two people with me that keep changing who they are.  They can't decide on a restaurant and I finally say that I got to get going so how about White Castle?  They are screwing around and I am like lets get food here, its close to my car and I can go.  They are like "But we wanted to talk to this woman about a job"  and I say go when I am done - without me.

We are walking on a bike / walking trail and this little dog runs out and almost gets run over.  Somebody sets their water down and I am trying to figure out who it belongs to.  I am on a bike and I am riding the path and there are little blue arrows pointing one direction and I notice I am going the wrong way.  As I start to turn around, some girl yells at me and says I am going the wrong way.  I take my bike up the escalator and my ex-husband is going down as I go up.  He says something to me that is very soothing, like he no longer holds a grudge and as the escalator takes me up and him down, I feel this sense of peace and happiness.  Everything is ok.

I am at the top of the escalator now and I suddenly think I need to sweep.  I am cleaning up so I can travel (?) and each time I run the sweeper over the floor big puffs of dust fly up.

At one point I am in a "life" interview and I am saying how working at McDonalds was probably the most carefree and stress free time I had ever had and how much it built character for me.

Insights and Interpretations:
I like the paragraph that talks about the guy upstairs crapping on my stuff.  It is almost like I am saying that "god" is crapping on my life which is an apt description at this point of my life.

The metaphor about the bike track seems pretty apt too.  That I am going in the wrong direction. Unfortunately, I don't see alot of blue arrows in my everyday activity but I will certainly keep a look out for them now.  Perhaps they can direct me.

The piece about the travel and dust kicking up - I think might be a reference to cleaning up my finances and every time I try, I get this dust obscuring my view and preventing me from traveling.  I will have to pay attention to that.

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October 7, 2000

The next scene is a classroom where xavier is teaching a class and as soon as I walk in, the kids start throwing spit balls at each other and a raucous ensues and then I see Wolverine, Storm, and Cyclopes in a big pile with all the kids trying to break it up.  I see professor Xavier looking around kind of confused and trying to focus his mental energy on breaking up this pile and then I start trying to focus on the Bridge-It aspect of my name.  I am in deep concentration when Xavier notices me and wheels himself over to introduce himself.  Everybody seems to calm down and go back to work.

Then I am on an airplane getting ready to go to France or England, I can't figure out which one.  And the pilot starts to take off and feels something wrong with the engine and comes out and pulls a vent off in front of me and there are spider webs in it.  Basically, he has to clean these vents or he is afraid that our flight wont reach its destination.  So we all have to unload and as we do, I hear the pilot refer to my group as the MzChaos group and I cringe.  I am thinking, oh crap, if you are calling us MzChaos, its hard telling what kind of crazy trip we are in for.  I think I even tell the pilot that he needs to refer to us by another name.

I am at the ticket counter with a little girl and we are waiting for the person with our tickets to show up.  This guy arrives and I think he might be the little girls father and he presents her ticket and then he says he didn't get me a ticket.  And, I am like, well that's just great.  So he gets on the plane with the little girl and Howler shows up and he has my ticket as well as one for the little girl.  Well, I figure we have time and since the father paid for the little girls ticket, then we might as well cash her ticket back in and get our money.   So we are at the counter and the chick says she can only give us coins.  (What the F&5@***K?)  Anyway I tell her fine and picture her rolling coins but she says it will take her a couple of hours to roll the coins and we only have like 5 minutes to board the flight now.  The ticket is for $221.45 and I am looking at this pile of change and I tell her fine just stick it in a bag and I will cash it at the other end.

Insights and Interpretations:
Well, I had just been to see the new (old now) X-Men movie.  The gist of my "powers" was that when I was paying attention, the chaos side could come out and it created disruption like what you saw with the classroom (and the change too for that matter) and when the Brigitte (Bridge-it) side came out, I was able to bridge peoples personal differences, like Wolverine and Sabertooth shaking hands.  Something they would never do as they are arch enemies, you would know that if you watch X-Men or are into the comic series. 

The whole plane thing, traveling to another country and the change in the bag, is representing a change in my life coming up...and it might even have to do with travel since there were so many references made here.  The spider web was another indicator of being on the life path, in the web of destiny.  I have to say that this was a fun dream for me and I found it humorous whilst in the dream.  I think there is a fantasy part in each of us that would like to believe that we have something special that others might not have.  Whatever, I liked the feel that I was a mutant with special powers.

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