| Big Swing |
October
11, 2001 |
| The Dream: I was downtown but at a house a 2 story Victorian style home.
People lived there like it was a sectioned flat. I was flying around using a red scarf
attached to something. The scarf served as a catapult that I could use to swing higher and
further. I did this for a really long time swinging higher than I thought possible almost
vertical to the place the scarf was tied. It was exhilarating and a little fearful but I
was having fun. The people around kept telling me it looked dangerous and perhaps I should
stop but I didn't or wouldn't.
There was a small section where I am sure I had sex with my good friend John, only I
remember no details. What I remember is afterwards telling him it could never happen again
and I was really harsh about it. He started crying because I was so mean which made me
feel bad and I started crying. I wasn't trying to be mean just to be sure he understood
that it could never happen again. I was in the bathroom and I was bleeding, fresh blood, I
was going to get into the shower and when I looked down, I had blood all over my fingers.
I got it all over the trash bag too.
Insights and Interpretations:
Basically, I don't know. It was really
cool with all the flying around and stuff but I don't have a clue about the sex
part. Or, the blood all over my fingers...sounds very ominous. Why do I have
to be soooo mean? ----- Back To Top |
| Alligator |
October 19,
2001 |
| The Dream:
There is an alligator chasing me and Andy
and as we are running I keep telling Andy, "They don't eat humans, they don't eat
humans." We were in a condo complex and these guys are watching and as the alligator
stops chasing us this dragon comes along. It is mostly orange with red tipped scales on
its back with a purple underbelly absolutely gorgeous. Its actually a lizard but they call
it a dragon because of its coloring. The guys watching are actually the handlers for both
the alligator and the dragon. There is a group of children and the handlers are showing
the reptiles to them. Then one very small child is encouraged to put its head in the
alligators mouth and I am like, oh this can't be good. The handler make the alligator open
its mouth really wide and the child puts its head in so far it almost disappears but the
animal never bites it.
There is a scene where I am yelling at Carl because only 90% of the population knows what
we know. Penny is there and she is scared. I am telling Carl that our jobs are to help
them be less scared because we know and they don't and since we can't teach them what we
know (no time) then we have to help them not be afraid.
I am looking at stretchy t-shirts with no back on them and trying to decide if I should
buy one. I keep thinking that they will be too tight but I am wearing this really old suit
that I used to own and have no idea why I am wearing it but its tight and too
uncomfortable. I also see this brown shirt that is really big and loose and I think ink it
will be comfortable so I think I will buy both. Just then some guy comes up and starts
accosting me, talking about taking me back to his hotel room and he is a creep. The scene
kind of changes and I am running (more specifically, a boy and his dog) are running from
bad men and this guy buries the boy in a hole in the ground like a room and the man I
think was the dog and when he puts the last block on the hiding place he is supposed to
turn back into a dog but the bad guys start firing guns into the hold where they are and
the man notices a door that he didn't see before and opens it into the basement of this
house. Then I am there again and running up the stairs and the guy who accosted me earlier
is on the stairs startled to see me and I say I owe you and apology, I was mistaken about
you and thank you for saving me. This throws him off - as I had hoped and I rush past him.
And out to the street. He chases after me to stop me I guess. And I keep running. This red
convertible pulls up with a woman driving it and I am like, "I really hate to ask but
could you give me a ride? This guy is creeping me out." She is about to say no as I
am leaping into the car when she notices the guy and his intent doesn't look good so she
drives off (peels out). As I look back, Andy is being chased the opposite direction but he
is getting away so I am not concerned. I point this out to my driver who looks back just
as Janet pulls out of the house being chased but she is on a bike and charges them and
they run away. We think she is fine until she turns the bike to go away from her pursuers
and it is uphill and they start after her again. My driver wheels the car around and gets
to Janet just before the bad guys do. She peels out again and we take off down the road.
Insights and Interpretations:
You know I really think I could give you
better interpretations if I weren't always two months behind in my postings. (Do I
sound like I have enough excuses going here?) What you miss from the first section
is how funny it is that I am yelling...they don't eat humans as we are running for our
lives from these beasts....still it is only a dream.
I really feel that some of the
creepy things that show up in my dreams may be pointing to my own discomfort in my own
life. I have not been too happy lately due to money constrictions and sheer
boredom. Even my dreams don't come that frequently - as you would have noticed if
you had looked over any other month. I don't have so much going on in my life, even
though I seem busy...seems like I missing something really big that I have no idea what it
is....It also seems like I am always waiting around for something to happen - like
what? No idea. ----- Back To Top |
| Uninvited
Party |
October 21,
2001 |
| The Dream:
I am inviting everybody to a party at Janet and
Michael's except I haven't spoken to them yet about having a party and don't even know if
they will be in town. I have invited Kate and Drew and others and am walking all over
Broadripple, Janet lives in Broadripple, which oddly enough, they don't in real life. And,
as I walk around I pass Sandra twice walking with two different friends...one I think is
Melissa. And I am a little hurt because she seems to have time for other friends, just not
me.
Kate is showing us her new house that she and Drew just bought and explaining that she had
a difficult time selling her old house but I can't remember now why that was. I remember
thinking that I missed an opportunity to not only sell her house but to help her find one
to buy as well.
I am sorting through my siblings Halloween candy. I don't know why they have it and I
don't but they have alot of it and are willing to share. They have so much that they have
stashed some of it in a bucket in the attic. I am digging through the candy in search of
the good chocolate that I keep selecting out of their batches. I come across some hard
candies and suggest that they put them out at the next party because even though nobody
really likes that kind of candy, people at a party will randomly select the hard candies
just because they are there and it will help them get rid of it.
There is a house that someone has just bought. It looks like it needs work on the inside.
But miraculously the house is in good shape. It is actually a double and what is most
striking about it is that it is located on a secluded cove of water. They have a pool in
the back surrounded by trees and this huge deck. This area is shared equally by both sides
of the house but late at night no one ever goes out there and I remember thinking this
would be an excellent place for skinny dipping.
Insights and Interpretations:
The first part of the dream, as far as Sandra
goes may be indicating my sense of separation from one of my best friends, except that
neither of us have had time for each other. Inviting people to the party could be an
unconscious thing that I am doing that I don't even realize quite yet. The second
part is still part of the first and as I am concerned about missed opportunities...this
could be true as well and it may be using the real estate as a metaphor for other
opportunities I feel I might be missing.
The candy is interesting because last
year about this time I was having similar dreams. I might need to go back and
compare. Seeking out chocolate which seems to be the prime objective and also
the premium candy might be a clue. I obviously have no qualms about giving the less
premium candy away to strangers. hehehe.
I liked the last piece a lot because of
the feel and ambiance of it all. The seclusion and ability to be naked with myself,
so to speak. It has a lot of hidden metaphors in it. The double of the house,
the double of the self. Water can mean emotions and trees can be a source of life,
the house itself could be an indicator of the body - and it looks like it needs help but
is in rather good shape.
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| Rebuilding |
October 10,
2001 |
| The Dream:
There is a big old house. I think it is for sale.
I am looking at it as if I am evaluating it, like it is for sale. It is disgusting. I
can't quite pinpoint why it is so disgusting, as if full of bugs and critters...or put
together shoddy like particle board interiors or what. I just remember thinking to myself
that a person might be better off buying the property and then tearing the house down and
rebuilding. And I got kind of excited about that prospect because they were only asking
$70,000 for the house and property and the property was sitting on about 15-20 acres. So I
was doing the math in my head...ok, 2K per acre is $40K and you would pay roughly $30K for
the house which you tear down and rebuild. And if push came to shove you could live in the
house for a few months if you had to in order to build a new place.
I don't know what happened though because the next thing I knew we were climbing into the
cars to drive away. The house was owned by older people and I think one of them had just
died, leaving the other elderly person in
the home alone and their kids wanted them to move out of the house so they didn't live
there alone.
There was another section where I was spending a lot of time in a supermarket - shopping.
I can not remember what I was shopping for or why, it seems like I was planning to stock
up on a lot of food but I don't actually remember doing so.
Insights and Interpretations:
I want to take this last section first. Shopping could
be indicating searching for things that I want. Then flipping back to the first
piece, it is kind of unsettling because it looks like the house has some serious
problems. The dream left me with a very unsettling feeling about it even though it
does leave some hope. The fact that old people left it behind and one has
died, could be telling me that a part of myself has died and the piece that is left, must
find a way to dispose of the things that no longer serve me. The foundation or land
as it is referred to here is good and its a good price but the walls are full of dead
things. Ie, the stuff it is made of is not good quality and doesn't serve
me...meaning, my props need to be changed. ----- Back To Top |
| Out of
Place |
October
20, 2001 |
| The Dream:
I am scooping small fish into their bowl
when I realize that the room is filled with water and I am the one that is out of place.
Just then the room starts to un-fill with water and the little fishes get put back in
their bowl where they belong.
Insights and Interpretations:
Again, this could be an indication that I feel out
of place in my life. The being swallowed up by water could be the emotional aspects
which I rarely acknowledge while awake, perhaps the dreams are saying I need to. And
then the fish get put back where they belong...that could mean also that I get it together
and gain some perspective. Fish sometimes can be ideas, because they are small and
come in groupings and my dreams sometimes generate ideas for me. So perhaps this is
saying that my ideas will be put into perspective and get put in place. -----
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| Elizabeth
Taylor |
October
1, 2001 |
| The Dream:
Elizabeth Taylor was explaining to me how her
boat caught on fire and her two children were in the hull. She said she had to get
back on the boat inflamed to get into the hull and get her children out. I saw the
boat on fire as she was explaining and saw her getting back on the boat to get her
children out. I remember thinking that I never knew she had children, let alone
teenagers. I never remembered hearing that about her.
There was a small section where we were
floating on innertubes and floating down this very shallow river that looked more like a
road. There were parts where I was half in the water and my feet weren't touching
bottom but I could see the rocks which where barely inches below the surface.
Insights and Interpretations:
This one is very interesting because
around the same time my computer was having difficulties and I run 2 jobs off of it that I
actually get paid for. The other thing is after getting hit with a virus in late
September, we had to install all sorts of software to run protection and this seemed to
eat up my RAM capabilities...which was very similar to the floating in shallow water but
being able to see the bottom even though I couldn't touch it. What would happen is
as I opened new programs to run these jobs, my memory would be eaten up on the front side,
which has a tendency to push necessary computer jobs to the background in order to
maintain the integrity of the programs open. ... that's probably more information than you
needed, but in essence...I could see that there was more material to work with but (that
the river was shallow, but I wasn't touching the bottom). And, Elizabeth Taylor
means absolutely nothing to me...as a metaphor, other than an actress, famous, older
even...maybe that is the indicator that my computer is a bit on the old side and could
stand to be updated.. no offense Liz. ----- Back To Top |
| Paintings ** |
October
12, 2001 |
| The Dream:
I came into a dream that a woman was trying
to sneak out the front door of her house but was being quiet because she thought her
husband was asleep upstairs. She couldn't get the front door open so she walked around and
opened the screen to the front door in order to get the front door open and forgot about
the screen door and it slammed shut behind her making her cringe. Then she pops open the
front door and finds a note from her husband saying that he ran out earlier so she was
sneaking around for nothing. The front door was green with glass window that looked like
it had an etched design in it. She was carrying as school book bag, because she was going
to use picking her kids up as a excuse if she got caught. I got the impression, she was
cheating on her husband and didn't want him to know but at the same time he was cheating
on her and she didn't know.
Then we / I went to see a home for sale. It was an old house. I think the paperwork said
1870 but I thought it was 1700 except that we have very very few houses in the US that
date back to 1770 and certainly not in the Midwest where I live. I puzzled this in the
dream and decided it must be 1870. There was a brochure on the house that said the
basement was in great shape, refinished and leak proofed with etched walls and cut-outs. I
questioned this thinking maybe they had termite damage and was trying to conceal evidence
of structural failure. However, the brochure went on to describe this area as a kind of
artists den. The brochure had illustrations of the walls and how they were designed, then
I was in the basement and much of the walls were constructed of knotty pine and people had
come through and "illustrated" the walls, taking a portion of wood that looked
similar to something (like cloud figures) and then inking or painting the images they saw
and fleshing them out to a real art piece. The referred to the basement as "The wall
of spire" As in short for inspire. The entire basement was full of these images. Some
were simple like a tweety bird rendition and others were quite complicated. I suddenly
find myself examining 2 paintings but I think I am now upstairs on a third level. The room
is full of paintings on canvas and as I look at them - actually, I think I have an orange
marker and started doodling on the wall and realized I couldn't see what I was drawing so
I leaned in closer to see my outline and realized it was a whole painting (2 of them). I
started going, oh no these are mine and someone has painted over them. I thought that one
that was painted over was one of my favorite pieces but realized that no it was a canvas I
would have let someone paint over anyway because I didn't particularly care for the art I
had done.
Let me describe the paintings:
The one on the right was a head, female looking with a halo, not around her head but
around her neck and in the halo, appearing as if they had been painted over making them
appear ghostly was a daisy chain of small naked children dancing around this halo'd
woman's neck. The paint had bold rainbow colors but mostly dark blues and purples with
just a hint of the red, yellow, orange, and green. her eyes were closed as though in
meditation, head slightly bent forward with a spray of light, white light, emanating from
her forehead. I don't "see" the connection but it is possible that her white
light beam actually is the source of small children dancing around her neck. Painting two,
to the left, the one I originally started to draw on was painted in dark blue as well,
almost under water-esque. There were faces painted on the under water scene, one was
female with short red hair parted down the middle, except her hair was painted straight
down on the right side of her head and straight out on the left side of her head. As if to
mean wind blew her hair to the left??!!?? She had lipid pools of sea green eyes with no
pupil, her face very non-descript and simple. The second face was red haired as well and I
thought to myself that artists must have a fascination for red hair and green eyes due to
the contrast or something because I am attracted to the same features as an artist.
Anyway, her hair was longer with the same lipid pool of green eye because her left eye had
been etched out from the forehead to nose down to the cheek bone and over to the hair
line. This was the area I had been drawing in and it was an underwater scene that had not
yet been completed (looked picasso-esque). Dark blue with a rock at the bottom and white
lines rising horizontal about the rock to give the illusion of water. I was trying to draw
a shell in the background. Impression was that this eye socket was the image the woman in
the painting was seeing and that it was being illustrated (by the artist) by removing the
actual eye and painting the image where the eye should be (as if you could see what she
was seeing).
Insights and Interpretations:
The most significant part of
this dream is the view of the painting and how it is trying to describe what the inanimate
person within the painting is viewing. It seems almost like that is what happens to
me in my dreams, as if I get a view of something from another's perspective. I wish
somebody would make a movie out of my dreams so the world could see what I seen...course,
not everyone is as mentally stable as I am, and it might make the world crazy. Woo
hoo, like we need help. It also indicates, that whatever work is in progress has not
yet been completed - is still in the works. The Wall of Spire was really cool too,
don't really know what it means exactly but it is an interesting concept. And, I
like to pretend that I am the woman in the first painting with the halo of children around
my neck as if I am the pied piper of dream land and all my children follow me to the
nether regions of the world. I like where I live...do you? -----
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| Strange
Time |
October
12, 2001 |
| The Dream:
I am standing still but there is a row of houses
passing me on the right. I see one I like but it is going so fast that I barely get a
glance before it is gone. Each house is different. I think that if I can change the homes
then they mean nothing but if I can not then perhaps they are real houses that I will see
when I am awake. I try to change three houses and they melt into a different house so I
figure these are dream houses. I am trying to stop or slow the house because it occurs to
me that the houses are passing from the right to the left or future to past and that if I
can slow, or reverse them then I can return to the past (or a past house). I do this and
manage to slow the progression but I don't think I actually manage to reverse them. I
believe in the dream I was trying to test my ability to time travel and turn back the
hands of time or return to the past. (The future was coming so fast.)
Insights and Interpretations:
Cool Concept! And, all I can really walk
away with is that my future may be coming at me faster than I think...I may wish for
calmer times at some point in the future (however, this is now November and my life still
bores me to tears - so apparently this is the far off distant future in a time zone far,
far away.) ----- Back To Top |
| Kat &
Chuck |
October
18, 2001 |
| The
Dream: Kat & Chuck come to the house
to visit and they are driving a big white truck. I hear them pull up so I look out an
upstairs window and they are in the driveway, spinning their car in circles, really really
fast. I tell Andy, they are going to loose control and hit my car. We both go running down
the stairs just as we heard a large boom. Kat and chuck are laying in the grass laughing,
their vehicle looks fine but mine has rolled 8 feet down the drive way so I know they have
hit it. Andy's looking at the bumper telling me it doesn't look that bad and Chuck and Kat
are still laughing about what a wild ride it was. I can see the bumper is mashed in and am
wondering about chassis damage, undercarriage. I am kind of yelling at them about what
they thought they were doing and am afraid to ask them if they want me to turn it into
insurance because I am no sure they even have any. We are up under the care and there is
something leaking and I point it out to Andy and its the wiper fluid and the hose has come
undone and he re-hooks it. There are a couple of other things we can see and like 3 of us
are on the ground looking up at the bottom of my car trying to find out if anything major
was effected. Next, Kat and I are in my closet looking at clothes that were really
expensive that I no longer like or can't wear and Melissa shows up. I have to get rid of
some of these clothes and am hoping that they will take some because I hate to just give
them to Amvets because they cost so much. Most are suites or complete outfits and I think
they take a couple but there are many that still need to go.
This feels Halloween'ish. The Simpson kids have died and are ghosts, Bart Lisa and Maggie.
They were killed accidentally and should not be dead. I must be an angel or something
because I am trying to chase down another ghost named Mr. Barrett or Garrett that has been
dead a long time in order to get the Simpson kids back. They are running around talking to
people who can't see them and its quite humorous. The rule is that I have to get someone
dead to acknowledge that the Simpson's are not supposed to be dead before midnight of the
same day they die or they can't come back to life. I chase Mr. Barrett into a church,
people think I am crazy because I "appear" to be talking to no on but Mr.
Barrett finally agrees that the Simpson's died in error so I can bring them back to life.
(Very funny!)
I bought a really big rustic house. The living, dining and kitchen areas are so large they
could have belonged to a restaurant. I like it a lot. I am talking to the guys, Greg, Mike
and Randy about coming over once a month to brew homemade beer and stocking the bar for
the future. I think they are going to agree to. The place is awesome and huge with wood
floors and big wood beams everywhere. I think I could be out in the country somewhat and
the kitchen looks fairly modern, updated which is a plus to me.
Small section where I was kissing someone, but it felt like I was kissing a pillow, only
real. Except awake, it felt so much like a pillow that I wonder now if I wasn't kissing my
pillow for real. Seems unlikely, but reminds me of all those teenage angst years (hell,
adult years for that matter), where I used to pretend my pillow was someone. (That pillow
was a good kisser!)
Insights and Interpretations:
Hey, at least I am getting some action from
the pillow!!! Is that a real episode of the Simpsons? I don't usually see the
show so I don't know but it was pretty darn hilarious. I don't know who Mr. Garrett
or Barrett is either, even though I do know a Mr. Barrett...he didn't look anything like
the guy in the dream. Sometimes, it seems like my dreams might be what-if scenarios
for a sci-fi or fantasy book. Like I said, they would make interesting movies...ok,
maybe I say that in November since I am out of sequence in posting...but I do say it on my
web somewhere. ----- Back To Top |
| Wedding
Dress |
October 4,
2001 |
| The Dream:
I was with Sandra in a specialty shop. It
was the first one we had gone into and the first dress Sandra tried on was the dress she
wanted for her wedding. It had a scoop neck with a single simple string of lace and the
sleeves were just past her elbows. It was full length, off white but mostly white, and was
made of a heavy type material, not quite like a satin but similar. I was going to be her
bridesmaid, I guess, and I found a dress as well that was white and looked like a wedding
dress also. her dress was about $200 and she said "this is exactly what I
wanted." It so perfectly fit what she was looking for in both style and price.
Insights and Interpretations:
I spoke to Sandra the same day and told her
about the dress and described it to her and she said that it was exactly what she was
looking for, except the formal length. It ran to the ankles in the dream and I thought it
was more formal than she was looking for. She really is getting married in April and I
won't be attending her wedding because I will be out of the country. The dream was
fascinating all the same. ----- Back To Top |
| Las Vegas |
October 24, 2001 |
| The Dream: I believe I start in Vegas. I am walking on the streets of the
town in a small area that reminds me of like Scottsdale Arizona, upscale shops, cobbled
sidewalks. We are near a bank...sometimes in it, or just outside of
it. I am with my Aunt. I find like 7 dollars on the ground, one of which was a 5 dollar
bill. I give them to my aunt. We go into the bank and when we come back out...I am
thinking to myself that it would be logical to find more money around the same place I
found it before and just then I saw it laying on the ground. It was folded in half and
when I picked it up, I realized there were several bills folded into it. I started adding
it to the money that I gave to my aunt earlier and total I had found 37 or 38 dollars. The
folded dollars on the ground were made up of crisp fives and tens. I feel my nephew around
me as well but I don't recall actually seeing him.
I find I am at the hotel lobby where we are staying in Vegas. I can tell that I am with a
group of people that feel familiar but I don't see them around me. Andy is there for sure.
The hotel is giving a pitch for condo sales of their rooms and asks me if I want to go to
their breakfast meeting. Well, I have done these before and my first inclination is to say
no...however, this is a really nice hotel and I am curious to see what they have to offer
so I say yes. It turns out that my entire group is going to attend this meeting. Somehow I
have gotten separated from Andy. The presenter for the condo gig escorts our group down
one of the side hallways, where all the hotel shops are and into a very small cigarette
shop and through a door in the cigarette shop to enter a restaurant that is on the other
side. Apparently this is mostly an employee route through the hotel but since you might
buy into their condos they treat you as if you were an owner already and show you areas of
the hotel one might not otherwise see. We are seated at the restaurant which is very
upscale, waiting for all to show so we can get started. I can't remember the color but the
table was laid out with a table cloth and set with full dining ware and plates, several
glasses. Randy and Chantal are there...the seat next to me is empty, and I know it is for
Andy but I don't know where the heck he went and I am starting to wonder if he even knew
about this meeting. I keep picturing him standing in the lobby looking for us. I want to
hurry and get this meeting over so I can play the slots...apparently we aren't going to be
in this city for long and I have not yet been able to get to the slot machines and I only
want to play for maybe a couple of hours. I decide I better have Andy paged so he will
know where we are.
I go back through the cigarette shop and into the lobby. I can't remember my room number
so I hesitate to ask them to call the room. I keep thinking I should have brought my key
or something. I ask them to page and explain
that we are waiting for him in the restaurant for the meeting. I hear the lady get on the
intercom, and it is hilarious. She starts sounding like a talk show
announcer...."Will the talented and kind William Mogollon, please
come to the front lobby. Your party is waiting for you in the 12th floor lobby area."
She goes on and on....it is funny. And, yes I realize it says 12th floor but I don't know
if that was where the condo display was and now
we are on the ground floor or if I am confused and the lobby and check in is on the 12th
floor. Anyway, I figure if Andy hears the announcement that someone at the condo area will
direct him to the restaurant. That's all I
remember.
Earlier in the evening...I had a snippet where I was seeing some man (who I obviously
thought belonged to me in some manner) escorting this blond woman around...I saw them go
from several different hotels, as if it were
progressing over several days. The weird part is that I am in one hotel room, when they
check in and it is very awkward. It is as if I think the man is having an affair with this
woman, even though logically I can see that he is not. Then the woman, I think is trying
to trap the man into having an affair with her but she acts very innocent as if that is
the furthest thing from her mind (I don't think it is). And the man, thinks that I might
be jealous which kind of bugs him because clearly there could not have been anything going
on with this woman (from his perspective)...and I don't know if he really believes that I
believe in him enough. It is like I got three different perspectives as well as their true
motives at the same time, which means I was sorting through like 6 different scenarios.
Confusing. On top of this, I could clearly hear the back ground television or radio very
loudly. I thought, as I slightly came out of my dream, that I was experiencing 3
separate modes of consciousness at the same time...there a very distinct dreaming mode...as
described above, then there was this very loud what I would call interference coming
through which was the television / radio announcements...it was like news and it was kind
of annoying to me because it was so background that I couldn't really concentrate on it
unless I pulled out of the dream and paid attention to the announcements which I didn't
really want to do. As I was sorting this out consciously, I was aware of this very subtle
communication going on low...softly...as if a whisper beneath these other two forms of
communication. Now, the really weird part about this 3 level split is that two nights ago
I was dreaming but could not remember any details...what I had the sensation of is that I
was viewing 3 different dreams at the same time but I couldn't grasp enough of any of them
to actually record...all I remembered was the sensation. I am wondering if this isn't some
sort of new mode of dreams for me...not all that odd for me to try to do three things at
once (On the other hand, I might have always been working through the 3 levels or sources
and not realized that they were different before...I think, this is a way of affirming
that their is a difference between the way I dreamed before - or communicated - and the
way I am going to learn to communicate in the future.
Insights and Interpretations:
Normally, if you have seen my dreams - or
read any at length, then you know that I find change in abundance in my
dreams...constantly, as if it is no big deal. I rarely find dollar bills...it is usually
my observing of others with dollars, not my own finding of dollars...I hope this is a
significant difference in what that means within my life...as if that means real money
coming in the future. We shall wait and see. ----- Back To Top |
| New Game |
October 25, 2001 |
| The Dream: The first section (I think) was working in this small office area
with Jamie and Darlene. We are in a small room that only has one door and it is marble
lined. They are telling me that this room was fire proofed in the old days to keep the
safe and what not in it and protect it. Then I am talking to Jamie and he looks at me and
says, you have timerick (tumeric, tulameric) - it is a tremor / tick type of thing
happening with the muscles under the skin...he explains that when he had his last
operation...either the drugs or the disease had this left over residue that was called
this condition...he touches the side of my face which is the first indication that I knew
what he was talking about because I could suddenly feel my right side of the face
twitching. I started to tell him that I had just done some drugs because I was in pain but
since he was my boss, I wasn't sure if I should come right out and say that...but I was
thinking that this twitch might be coming from the drugs.
I am watching Andy play this new computer game. Except as a participant, you actually
enter the game and become the player...only when you die... it doesn't actually kill you in
real life, just in the game. The players look like energy gumby's meaning no particular
shape but glowing as if all you can see is their energy. It is very cut throat. Sometimes,
they even kill each other while standing at the start gate...before they even enter into
the maze. The game consists of running through a house and performing different duties
while in the house and beating your opponents through the tasks and chores. I watch Andy
and two other players cue up to begin and two of them start wrestling at the start
gate...I see Andy drop to the ground and crawl over the start line and then take off
running toward the house. The second guy kills the third guy at the start line and then
takes off after Andy...I am thinking this looks cool so I am going to "shadow"
the game and watch from inside it. I follow both of them into the house and Andy has
leaped up the walled fireplace to the second level...the second guy has transformed into
an insect and is crawling very quickly up the fireplace. I think I will help
Andy out and
go over to knock the second guy off the wall...I can't tell what he is but it looked like
a fly. So I swat at it and it looses balance but keeps going - as it gets higher, I swat
at it again and realize it is a spider and that it has webbed me and is hanging off of
me...I start running around swatting at it - thinking he is going to leave me alone in a
minute because he is loosing ground in the game. I am also thinking, since I am not a
player but an observer in this game that perhaps if he bites me...I will die...I am not
sure what the rules are for me. Anyway, I go running outside of the house and I can not
tell if he is still on me or not. I see where Andy is in the game and he is in the
kitchen...he puts on an apron, has to open a drawer to remove a knife, and slice some
vegetables for this point series...then all of us end up outside the house again. I have
climbed up a tree to hide.
Andy starts talking about how we need to cut some of these trees down because they are
becoming too cumbersome for the property. He points out a couple of pine trees, one of
which has already died and is leaning into another pine tree. We used to own this property
but we don't anymore it is someplace on the east side - We now own his parents condo (the
one they live in now). Suddenly Andy stops at this big oak tree and he is dissertating on
it and says, "I want this tree to be here when I die, so all my family members can
come here and remember me and be consoled that something still remains of all our
childhood." It is very weird, I see images of the tree being much smaller and all of
the siblings climbing in this tree when they were young. I am flying around the branches
of this tree.
I suddenly find that I am searching for candy corn and peanuts, a mix that is setting next
to my bed. There are only three candy corns left and hardly any peanuts at all. Then I
remember that June was at the house and she said...oh interesting combination...and picked
up two handfuls of the mix and put them in her pockets. No wonder I didn't have any left.
I was getting my picture taken and suddenly I saw Rob Wescott from high school. My boss
Scott is there and we are supposed to do a duo photo for business purposes. I don't want
Rob to see me because my hair looks like crap -odd since I am getting my photo done - but
it turns out that Rob is the photographer (Suck). So Scott and I are posing for this
picture and Scott is talking to this man he knows very well about going golfing. The man
says his wife Yolanda is at the course today and that Scott should go out to play some
golf. Scott gets all excited because I think he has this thing for Yolanda even though it
is just this playful flirtation...since this man is a friend of his and it is his wife.
Meantime, I don't think Rob recognizes me at all.
Insights and Interpretations:
Well, I don't get much of anything out
of this dream. The most significant piece to me is the new game Andy is
playing. Makes me wonder since his birthday was in September if the shift in his
numbers was saying that he was going to shift priority and the way he "played"
his life. He certainly seems to be announcing some changes by looking at his effigy.
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| Meditation Award |
October 26, 2001 |
| The Dream: I am in a church type of area. I think we have come to watch
someone speak but all the people, little children included, have laid down and are doing
this technique like ascension to bring peace to themselves and to the world. I have
already done this before and am a little less interested than the masses and I get up to
go look for someone or perhaps even to leave...I am unclear as to why I have gotten up but
some of the elders see me walking among the prone bodies and I can see that they are
watching me somewhat surprised and somewhat curious. At the end of the meditation, they
are presenting awards to the person they feel has meditated (ascended) the best and they
call my name. I go up to receive this award but I am a little confused on why I am getting
it. I am dressed in all white, tunic type top and loose pants. I accept the award and
apparently the elders that were watching me decided that I must be an adept at this type
of ascension so they decided to give me this award. I get the feeling that I don't even
really belong to this church, but was attending because I had a friend or family member
involved in it.
Small section where Len and Amy are passing baby clothes to Randy. Len and Randy are
having a dads day, which means they get to take care of the kids while the girls get a day
free to go do as they please. The child Randy has is an infant... which is why Len was
giving him their old clothes. I remember thinking that it was odd that Brian wasn't
included in their Dads day as well until I realized that he actually was but his daughter
is a toddler so he went off with her for the day to do something a child that age would
enjoy while Randy and Len spent the day drinking coffee and telling stories, while they
cared for these two infants.
Insights and Interpretations:
The last time I had a baby dream in a
prediction was earlier this year regarding a friend of mine and I wasn't sure if she was
due in December or got pregnant in December. I don't know what month that was in but
it turns out she must have gotten pregnant around December because she is due in August of
2002. So, if this dream is anything like the last time - then I would guess this
would be a year out (its now July, 2002) no word on a new baby coming in for this couple -
but I am wondering if by the end of the year I might hear of something like that - we
shall see. I don't know what the award was for, sometimes I get the idea that I
might be an initiate of some woowoo clan in the spirit world - the garb of the white tunic
and pants seems to show up alot. ----- Back To Top |
| Darlene's House |
October 2, 2001 |
| The Dream: I am in Darlene's house and I am touring it as if I am going to
put it up for sale. She has taken excellent care of it, except that she is a woman and
there were things over the years that wore out or broke down that she could not fix
herself. I remember discussing the property as if it were willed to her and it seems like
I am considering buying it myself and I remember comparing it verbally to the property I
bought from my mother after she had died. We walked into the bathroom and the washer and
dryer and tub and sink were in an interesting peach, burnt orangey sort of color. It was
kind of pretty but dated as if the old olive green or burnt orange of the 70's only I
don't remember a time where burnt peachy was a popular color. I remember walking around
outside and suddenly it became as if I were investing in a business and it was on the
water near broadripple. There was a similar correlation as if I already had one business
and was considering investing in a new office space. There was a guy trying to
"sell" me on it. I was looking down at the brick patio thinking how it looked
like it was brand newly laid. Then I was back inside and it was Darlene showing me her
house again.
Insights and Interpretations:
Well, one interesting correlation is
that Darlene actually fits a mother figure for me, so the fact that they make reference to
my mothers property that I bought after she did - which never happened by the way.
However, that in itself might be a clue. The only thing that I can connect to
that is something I bought that belonged to my mother after she died...meaning something
of my mothers that I gave meaning to but then that is still vague, it could be a concept
or clothes or anything really...certainly not property and I don't think I bought into too
many of her belief systems and I didn't get anything of material value...maybe spiritual
guidance from the other side now...and that is an interesting observation. The whole
burnt orange peachy color reminds me of the second chakra, courage issues and self
identity perhaps. Might be laying ground work for some changes in my future and
showing me that some of my stuff is a little outdated. ----- Back To Top
|
| Dog In Tree |
October 8, 2001 |
| The Dream: I am at my home and there are many of Andy's family members there.
We are all gathered on the sun porch and patio, discussing the backyard. We have a tarp
like tent set up near the fire pit, blue. It seems like it is sheltering stuff from rain
as if we were having a yard sale. We are discussing whether we should pitch a tent for
other family members to sleep in because we don't have enough room inside the house. Just
then Pesci (Collie Shepherd dog) runs across the backyard and scurries up this really big
tree and I am thinking, oh shit - you can't climb that tree, you're a dog. Dogs don't
climb trees. And, just then I see Pesci loose her grip and start sliding down the branches
of the tree and landing almost 20 feet to the ground. She gets up immediately and runs to
our fence and leaps into to neighbors backyard which clues me in that Penny and Greg live
next door and Pesci, in their back yard. I go to check Pesci out and she is favoring her
right front paw and I feel down the leg and it has a large lump half way down and I think
it must be broken.
Insights and Interpretations:
I tell you I was getting so
desperate for dreams that had any content in them that I was just writing down about
anything - most of which had nothing I could relate to, as in this one. The dog
represents loyalty to me and the tree, perhaps, a source of energy or sustenance. I
got Andy's whole family there, so maybe this is trying to tell me that I have a larger
support group in this family than I might be aware of, and maybe we are getting rid of
some things since it would appear we are having a sale of some sort. Poor Pesci, and
she is such a sweetie too. The right side might indicate a dominate thought or mode
of work that is operating in my life and I might have kind of given up hope for it - as it
would appear that it is broken. The fact that I am taking this dog up a tree when it
so obviously does not belong there makes me wonder if I am misplacing my loyalties in some
manner. Yes, now actually, that does kind of make sense to me - like I am thinking
something will provide me nourishment in my life but it really doesn't serve me as well as
I think it will. That actually makes sense about one of my jobs during this time.
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